Hmm, strange. Maybe I have gotten used to dissociation or something, or maybe I have become more emotionally mature? But whenever I'm feeling a certain type of way, it's like I can suddenly observe my mental health and emotions from a third person perspective. It's not like I can stop mental breakdowns when they come, but as they happen, a part of me goes "oh no... that is not good... you should stop... oh, you're not stopping... dammit". Right now, I can feel myself be sad and step away and wonder why and how, and realize I'm not sad but I seem to feel like it. I feel the sinking feeling in my gut, but it shouldn't be there.