So like. As the testosterone starts to really reshape my body and my living situation lends me more freedom in my gender expression, I am appalled at the street harassment I've been receiving. These are the comments/behaviors I've gotten in the last 11 days: "Must be nice to declare yourself a pedophile in public" *completely enraged stare, mumbled swearing under the breath. If I didnt know any better I'd assume she was literally cursing me with some kind of dark enchantment* *I've lost count of how many people have just stared and laughed at me, usually older cishet white men* *a slur in french canadian slang* *someone praying to God at me* "Just so you know brother the fuzz gives it away" referring to my baby beard "Something something FUCKING LIBERAL" Now. Obviously thats all Not Okay but what stands out to me is that I'm being harassed like I'm trans fem, not trans masc. I dont know, it's interesting because we love to debate at length and often to a community damaging degree who's more oppressed or othered or who experiences more violence and obviously this is regionally hyperspecific to me but in my experience? When I presented more masc with my now apparently readable masc body, I was left the fuck alone. Even when my body wasnt as obviously masc I was only harassed if I was doing some kind of PDA with one of my AFAB partners. But now I get lashouts from the men I confuse or the women who's puritanical womanhood I threaten, it's eye opening. What if I actually was trans fem?