This has been a weird few weeks. Lot of conflicting feelings and experiences. I've been waiting for some kind of mood to take over so I could focus on that as a theme for awhile but it seems like I will just have to do it scared. And excited. And broken and hurting and joyful and loved and lonely and confused and hopeful and so on. Have you ever noticed that at some point of intensity you can't tell the difference between laughing and crying?