Was woken up by knocking on the door which had me BOLT out of bed to see what was going on. Even on a good day just waking up normally to a quiet house is hard enough and sets off a number of internal alarms as I come back online. It doesn't really matter who it was because there's no one I would be ok with waking me up like that, but it was randomly this overly friendly plumber I use sometimes who had no reason to be here... I'm so spaced out that for a second before I fully woke up I was thinking "did I fucking call this guy?!" but no, I definitely didn't. #cptsd #anxiety