That's awful. I'm sorry the local resources available to you are horrific. I'm sorry I sound like a fucking robot. I'm treading lightly. I'm not an expert. I don't know what you or people reading this may be going through. If the crisis line is going to send a psychopath with a gun to your home, **do not ring that line.** There are international resources available that don't dispatch armed units to your exact location. I haven't used any of them, so I can't vouch for them. There is no one size fits all solution for a crisis. As I understand it, the main goal is just to get the person in crisis talking to another human being. Apparently that helps a lot. It doesn't have to be a crisis line. It could just be someone who might care. Please go well, friend. I truly hope you have brighter days ahead.