i just went through a false awakening/lucid dreaming and it has to be one of the most horrid experiences iny life >wake up >eyelids feel extremely heavy >body feels like made of iron >manage to stand from bed >still cant open my eyes >make an active effort to open my eyes >i can do it but feel as if my eyes will close the moment i lose focus >everything is dark >expected since i sleep with the ligths off like a normal human being >search for the light switch, body still feeling ubvelievably heavy >turn on the lights >nothing changes >try again and again, doesnt work >reach for the door expecting other rooms to be illuminated >everything is dark, very dimly lit as in i can barely make a few shapes with my barely open eyes >still confused, still thinking maybe i just need to wake up fully, maybe someone turned off more lights since im not alone in this house >relax and close my eyes due to sleepyness >have a hard time opening them again >manage to open my right eye only >im at my bed again >dread starts to sink in >start to try and wake up >get out of bed >try to get to the door of the room >too tired >fall and close my eyes >loop repeats >try waking up my dad multiple times >fall asleep many times >wake up many more >horror in me builds up >my grasp on whats real fading >i know im in a dream but i can't escape it >experience around 10 false awakenings if not more >try all sort of shit >somehow not giving up >fighting the feeling of drowsiness actively >through sheer willpower and fear turned anger i manage to wake up for real >grasp on reality still feels weird as if i blink i will go back to that god forsake hell >grab my phone >slept 2 hours >everyone is asleep >uncanny feeling still sitting in the back of my head still >blinking still feels weird >still feel sleepy but scared of going back to sleep >now just sitting in living room, in front of tv, alone in the dead of night i think im just gonna way for the sun to come out