Wren pointed out to me yesterday that I'm in some sort of sensitive state. True. Several days now. Not sure why I am in my feels. Maybe. It's really, I mean, I am really, starting to *bug me*. I keep having these fighting thoughts. I hear so many wonderful voices and then I hear a few very critical of me voices from my past. The critical voices are outnumbered but louder. That then has me weighting things as I try to process through it. I am clear on me. I do think I'm a good person, so this is not my hangup. I know I am loved by a few. I know newly this week that a lot of people I work with want to keep me in their life in some way. I don't think I know what my hangup is. Why, maybe, I let those critical voices have a megaphone? How do I tackle those shits and take away the megaphone? Why I can't accept people appreciating me or caring about me without thinking about and refocusing on the people who told me they did not like me in some way and then wondering what I did wrong...? Maybe more or something else? Anyway. I'm in my feels. No I don't want to talk about it more. That was enough said. I can walk away from it now today.