First day of the multiplatform software development course. It was fucking horrible. Everyone is... just... so... uncaring. Like, most seem like they just chose the course just because "they felt like it". They don't give a fuck. There is an atmosphere of no interest whatsoever. Nobody is excited, nobody cares. It's like they are just NPCs. Nobody says anything, Nobody expresses any opinions. Nobody wants to answer anything the teacher asks. I thought it would be like back at uni. I thought people would be so hyped and so into it and so nerdy and quirky and interesting. I thought I would be in my element again, surrounded by the people that make me feel less alone in the world. But no. I was so so so wrong. I was so happy these last months waiting for this. And it all has come crashing down. Now all I want is to find whatever shittiest job I can as fast as possible so that I can leave that fucking class forever or just fucking die already because I can't stand any of this pain anymore. I feel so fucking alone. I miss Shuri so much. I can't stand this pain. It hurts so much.