I've decided to seek asylum in France, instead after contacting some NGOs in France and got some more advices from friends that has experience with migrations in EU and living experience in France. All the fund collected will be used for the same purpose still, to buy tickets, travelling necessities and as an emergency fund while I'm there. Different location, but same purpose. I've also booked a flight ticket from Malaysia to France, so I'm committing to this. No changing my mind, now. Thanks for helping me to get to this point!