decided to most likely not be at the megaknowledgecamp next weekend. would be too stressful in general for me especially since i have not really a enough of info about anything. also i don't really have someone there who i can just follow all the time and rely on so the not enough information thing can't be fixed by relying on someone. and on multiple events in the past i wasn't able to getting something to eat because of missing information or because of some other things that i wasn't able to solve on my own. and that can happen again really easily at the event next weekend because its exactly this type of event where that happens a lot.